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Hurray!!! Finally it’s over… well, more precisely, partially over. =)

Yesterday was one of the most hectic day for all the final years. Everyone was rushing to prepare to give their very best to impress the panels in 8 minutes. That was the most precious yet most suffocating 8 minutes…

I was lucky to be judged by a few good ones. No killing questions, no full-powered-blast comments, just took a few small “bullets”… but some of my friends was not that lucky. Anyway, just let bygones be bygones…

After watching a few friends’ presentation, I realized that there are still so many things that I yet to learn. So many advanced technologies have been available in the market that we’re unaware of.

Ya, most of you might say, “Of course Calvin, you’re a nerd!” or “Dun be so kiasu!“.

Well, I do agree with that partially. But after being in the engineering field for years, I somehow feel that the outside world has much more to offer, provided we take the initiative to go for them, taking step by step to approach them, appreciate them.

Somehow I suddenly realized that I have been wasting so much time in the past. Instead of doing the right thing, I just complaint that I have a boring life.

Life is never boring if we know what we want, and take action to achieve it. Human’s needs are endless, but how many are willing to sacrifice, to work hard to achieve them? Work delayed is work undone, so how many of us are actually aware of it whenever we give excuse such as “Can I do it later?”.

Well, I think all these depend on how much we weight our needs. If we don’t apply a certain “weighting” to our targets, we would never achieve them. Instead of advancing, we would just sit back and procrastinate.

My job is still undone, and I’m now looking forward to my FYP2, where the interesting things will begin…

Went out with a few of my coursemates who are also doing their industrial training at KL here today. Walked around, watched movie and had a chat on our internship progress. To my surprise, I’m not alone…

Seems like most of them, like me, are not quite satisfy with what we are doing right now. We are spending most of our time in the office doing things that are not quite relevant to our scope of studies…

… and we really miss the days in university.

Most of my secondary schoolmates have already graduated at this moment and are earning their own income. I’ve always thought of wanting to graduate faster and join the corporate world as soon as possible. I’ve always thought of:

How would it be to be able to support myself.

How nice would it be to own myself a car.

What’s the feeling of being able to own a property, a house maybe.

… but these few weeks of training has really changed the idea. The corporate world is not as “ideal” as what I thought.

Sometimes really feel helpless. Why are we wasting so much time learning things that we are not going to use in future. Most people have to bear with the fact that they are going to do things that they are not interested in for a few decades just for the sake of living. It is true that companies will evaluate a fresh grad not only based on their academic result, but also skills…

But what skills?

The recent economy crisis has really hit our country hard, particularly electronic sector. Some of my seniors and friends are still jobless. Just hope that by the time I grad, things will be better.

Came across this from an email. For those who think I am “mysterious”, read on…

TAURUS MAN

A quiet simple man who can do something unexpected to shock you. Taurus man mostly medium tall, strong with good health, good strong body. When he talks, he likes to turn his head to one side on one direction. His body will be quite straight, facial structure tend to be square shape more than other shape. His eyes sparkle with liveliness.

Even when he is in love, he is still a free wild bird. He is a sand in your palm, the more you want to hold it, it will slip out. If you stand and hold it still, it will stay that way. Don’t set the rules and draw a line for him, he will not stay.

When you are with him, he will think only of you. But an hour later he could change his mind. He is very patient with other people, but very impatient with himself. His world always turning and it will not stop just because he loves you. If he up sets, he will show it right away. If something has gone wrong, he will blame his own carelessness instead of blaming other people.

He sincere to his friends even to some friends he does not like. He likes to do odd things and surprise other people. He could be fully dress in a nice suit and jump in the pool. He could slap your back so hard just to make you turn around to see he has flowers in his hand. He never want to get too close with anyone for he thinks living in reality is living by yourself.

He does not care what people think when he behave weird. He could be walking bare feet and laughing at people who laugh at him and think they are so narrow minded. He does not likes to follow conformity, but always want to search for new ventures, new mystery. He will interest in a life of a millionaire as much as a life of an old man selling newspaper on a sidewalk vendor.

He like to search and analyze people and things. He will analyze his friends or his girl friend, and once the mystery is gone, he will search for new puzzle to solve. He can not easily understand thing, so he will gradually learning about you till he fills up all his questions.

He knows so many people ,but he has a few friends. He looks for quality friends than quantity friends. He will be close with some friends shortly and move on. He always feel lonely even surround by many people. He could create his own little world, and sometimes no one would understand him. He looks only for future and he thinks he lives for the future. He may wonder how many people think like he does, but he does not want to be like the others.

A man with a conflict personality. He is a cool, understanding, able to work well, and very artistic. Taurus man could be an artist. He could shock you as much as he is able to clam you down when you up set. He is a free spirit who likes venture, but when he wants to be alone, do not touch him but to let him be. He won’t disappear from the crowds too long, he will be back.

He will give you straight forward opinion or comments, but will never advice what he thinks you should do. He does not like people to tell him what he should do too. He thinks each individual dreams and thoughts should be very private. He will use his brain not his body strength, so he will let other guys compete. He has a certain satisfactory in life and hate to force himself in competition. He may seems careless, but actually he is a thinker and a stubborn one.

He sees anythings in details and not easily trusted people till he thinks he knows them well. You can just smile and he will think why and what are you smiling about, and if you are pretending. Once he trust you and accept you as a friend, no one can says other wise to change that for he will not listen to gossip. He will be honest and sincere to his friends.

He hates lies, so he will not tell you lies. If he finds it is necessary to lie, he will find other ways not to tell you or avoid telling you anything. If he really has to lie, you will never be able to tell that he is lying. He can really keep secrets, so you will hardly know that he is a lonely soul.

If you want this kind of guy, you have to be an interesting person. He has to be curious about you. Hell for him is ‘No Freedom’, so if he marry you then you should know it is the biggest decision in his life. Always be interesting, then you could have him beside you.

So what do you think? Am I this type of person? =P

It’s 4:30 AM now, and yet I’m still in the lab, struggling…  as usual, another sleepless night.

This year, we are changing our strategy. Instead of one-man-show, we’re being divided into departments to break down and be more specified on our tasks. For months we’ve been working hard on it, and yet til today, nothing much has been accomplished.

Instead of being more productive, we’re slowing down.

Instead of being more efficient, we seems to be more unorganized.

Instead of having less problems, we’re facing more.

Instead of raising the morale and team spirit among members, everyone seems like half-dead.

Instead of improving, we seems to be static.

It’s not that nobody is working. Everyone stays up late every night to complete the tasks, but somehow we’re lack of something. And sadly, I don’t know what is it.

Have we chosen the wrong path since the beginning?

Have we recruited the wrong person?

Have we been de-motivated due to our financial problems?

Have we been neglecting some important aspects which we didn’t realize?

Everything seems so uncertain and we’re running out of time. It’s true that we’ve changed, but the question is are we changing for the better? Or for the worse?

Our target, our dream is still far away and I’m still trying to search for answers. Hopefully when I’ve found them, it’s not after the big-event.