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Just simply a “chatting” post. Here it goes…

A : Hmm, I’m wondering after so many weeks, you never asked me why I decide to separate with my wife and being together with my new gf half my age.

B : Err… am I suppose to ask that question? Anyway… why ar?

A : HA! Now you ask. Well, you see… there are so many different people with different characters and value in life. My wife is one that likes to control. She’s some sort like a “mercenary”, where whatever is your, is mine…whatever is mine, is mine. For so many years, no matter how hard I worked, I ended up having no money for myself. She’s earning twice at much as me, but she’s never satisfied. She’ll keep all my money. If I talk to her bout it, then she’s not happy…

B : Well, mayb she scared you simply use those money leh… and since you so leng chai, mayb she scared you go flirt with other women leh?

A : It’s not like that. You see… she has a habit of wanting people to obey to her orders. My 2nd child for instance, he got 6A’s and 1B for his UPSR, but her mother didn’t allow him to follow us travelling. She has many discipline in life, she’s very discipline herself, and she’s expecting everyone to be like her. When I talked to her bout it, she replied, “If you’re not happy with the way I teach the children, then why don’t you take over my task?”

B : Err… woow…she must have very high expectation on your children.

A : All parents have expectation on their children, but there must be a limit to it. You saw the way I work with you guys, I don’t like giving pressure unless it’s really necessary. And all of you know how busy I am, disappearing from the office for a few days often. So I can’t do anything much to help my family, my children you see. Every night when I’m back home, I can hardly spend time with them coz they’re revising their work.

B : How long have you been married?

A : Well, bout 20 years. If you asked me 10 years ago whether I’d file for a divorce, I’d confidently say NO. But now here I am, on the verge of getting a divorce.

B : How did you meet your wife? and was she like that when you first met?

A : She was once my customer, ordering machines for her university’s lab. After being married, she has a tendency to compete with me. She used to tell me that she’s better than me, coz she got a first class honour for her degree. So I told her, she might be better theoretically, but not in practical works, so she kept quiet. When she got her master, she told me that she’s now better than me, she’s teaching so many students, but I told her that while she’s teaching students, I’m teaching lecturers… you know, teaching them to use our PCB machines… then she kept quiet again. When she was taking her PhD, it was a hard experience for her. All this while she passed her degree and master through exams, but she got no idea how to pass her PhD, which require research. She used to write journals and asked me to read and give her comments in order to know how good was her papers. She dealed with robotics, artificial intelligence etc which I think suits you more than I am. All those are totally out of my scope and then she reminds me that she’s now better than me.

B : But why whould she wanna compete with her own husband? To prove that she’s more worthy than you, to show that she has higher authority than you, or what…?

A : I don’t know, and I don’t want to know either. But anyway my children are better off now. they have much freedom after I left with the help of my sisters-in-law (wife’s sisters). They’re probably think I’m a total BASTARD now but it’s ok. I promised her (my wife) that I will pay every month for my children expenses, to make sure that they get a good education. At least that’s what I can do right now.

B : Hmm, interesting… so how bout your new Philipino gf, you can be her father at this age instead of her bf I guess… haha. =P

A : Well you see, in Philipino they have a culture, where young women would normally search for elder men to be their couple. The living cost is so high there that young men normally wouldn’t afford to pay for their family. They have so many cases there where young guy get a girl pregnant, then simply flee away… coz he can’t afford to support the family.

B : Why? Is it that the economy there’s that bad?

A : The economy is so-so, but people there are suffering. When I first met this girl and got to know she normally eat only once per day, I asked for reason, and she say she’s on diet. But when we get to know each other longer, then only I know… they’re actually too poor to have more than a meal a day.

B : So what is it with the girl that attracts you.

A : First of all, I like my woman to have big boobs, and she definitely has them! (yeah… pervert =P) Another thing is the caring she can offer me. When we’re sleeping together, whenever I touched her, she would cuddled, or mayb give me a hug, eventhough she’s sleeping! This is so much satisfying for a relationship and this doesn’t exist between me and my wife at all! She always stay by my side when I went visit her at Philipines, to get me accompanied and that to me, was so contended. One more thing is that she’s not demanding. Since she comes from a poor family, she’s easily satisfied with things I’ve got to offer her, and that makes my life much easier and happier.

B : So how often you meet her.

A : Well, I’m planning to bring her to Malaysia. I’m in the process of testing whether is she treating me real or…you know…  Life, to me is like bout another 10 or 15 years maybe. So I don’t wanna live a lonely life. If I’m dead one day, she’d definitely get something from me. All I can offer to her is some sort of security, in exchange for her caring and this so called “friendship”.

B : Haha… seems like you are treating relationship like the way you do business, trading this for that…

A : Well, at my this age, nothing comes free… Life is to be enjoyed, so sometimes when you are really tensed with your work, try to think what makes a happy life for you. There’s no point having a big lum-sum of money but not having the ability to spend it, right? We must be balanced between life and work, and that will make our life more meaningful.

Cast:

B = Me

A = My boss

This is our conversation during our journey to University Malaysia Pahang on Tuesday. Went there to service and re-installing machines for their new campus. Well, another lessons of life… =)

My second trip to Penang for industrial training.

The last trip was mainly on technical works.

This time, we’re given the opportunity to get our hands on another aspect in the engineering field: sales and marketing.

NEPCON is basically an industrial electronic and automation exhibition. It is an effective way for suppliers to launch their new products and services to buyers, grow new businesses and gain new contacts.

Some sort like PC Fair la, except they’re selling larger guns machines and tools.

This is the second year Vanguard Electronic (the company I’m attached with) participated in the exhibition. Last year’s response was not very satisfying (according to one of my seniors la…), but this year seems to be better, despite the economy downturn.

One of our company’s products, almost cost a proton perdana

“Sales engineer” in action =P

The exhibition took 3 days and all of us was so exhausted, standing in the booth from 9am til 6pm everyday. Nonetheless, it was a great experience for us to get to know the market, industrial profiles and those “big boys with big toys” in the industry.

Farewell dinner

My lecturer once told us that as an engineer, we’d ended up dealing with only 2 types of thing: the dead (machines) and the alive (humans). Knowing our own strength and which of those is the best for us is crucial in determining our future.

Now I’ve been exposed to both, but I’m yet to decide which is best for me. The future still seems so blur…

I’m so hot, really HOT… well it’s not that I’m too sexy or what, but my body temperature was 40 degree celcius yesterday.

This is the 3rd time in my life having this “burning desease”, the 1st was 4 years ago, also 40 degrees… 2nd was 2 years ago, breaking all the records with 41 degrees, almost over-burned…

The weather is damn hot nowadays, plus everyday taking spicy food (no choice, the only option near my office area).

To all my friends, please take good care of yourself, just don’t be like me…haha.

Today I’m stil alive and kicking, blogging =P … Hopefully tomorrow I can return to work, just don’t wanna get another “fire attack” by my boss. |||-_-

Went out with a few of my coursemates who are also doing their industrial training at KL here today. Walked around, watched movie and had a chat on our internship progress. To my surprise, I’m not alone…

Seems like most of them, like me, are not quite satisfy with what we are doing right now. We are spending most of our time in the office doing things that are not quite relevant to our scope of studies…

… and we really miss the days in university.

Most of my secondary schoolmates have already graduated at this moment and are earning their own income. I’ve always thought of wanting to graduate faster and join the corporate world as soon as possible. I’ve always thought of:

How would it be to be able to support myself.

How nice would it be to own myself a car.

What’s the feeling of being able to own a property, a house maybe.

… but these few weeks of training has really changed the idea. The corporate world is not as “ideal” as what I thought.

Sometimes really feel helpless. Why are we wasting so much time learning things that we are not going to use in future. Most people have to bear with the fact that they are going to do things that they are not interested in for a few decades just for the sake of living. It is true that companies will evaluate a fresh grad not only based on their academic result, but also skills…

But what skills?

The recent economy crisis has really hit our country hard, particularly electronic sector. Some of my seniors and friends are still jobless. Just hope that by the time I grad, things will be better.